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I would really like to tell you that things are going smoothly but I can't do that. The holidays are creeping up and haven't finished my Christmas shopping. You get to the point of who do I buy a gift. At what point does one stop. Hell the house is sucking all the money out from under me. My beautiful chandeliers came the other day and of coarse one was broken in the shipping so I have to go through that hassle with freight company. The better news in my life is the fact I get to spend a few days in LA next week. That is a blessing.

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How is this for making my quest for peace and understanding. I go to the dermatologist for a couple of spots removed. Fool ya three biopsy's for skin cancer REALLY! Two of them on my face. I think this cancer card is showing up a little to much. I demand a new deck. No I insist someone call the pit boss over. I am trying to get this freaking house done. Can something cooperate please. Had an opportunity to go to Paris on the first of January but had to cancel. Just can't justify going even though my oldest told me people with cancer shouldn't have to justify things. Got to love her so wise. I really need to get my head on straight today the driveway gets poured, my chandeliers get delivered and installed. Some of my trim needs painting my doors are in and I think the plumber installs the bathrooms. That is if he shows up. Oh yeah that's up to the contractor I hired. Rule of thumb pay no one upfront. Running late got to run.

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So as I told you I have been working so hard to get the house done before the holidays. That really isn't my biggest concern. Even though I have put the cancer out of my mind, as much as one could, it still continues to grow. To tell you the truth I don't know how fast or how slow. Just the same it does it's thing regardless weather I want it to or not. I have three different Oncologists I am in contact with top in there field. So I do feel I'm in good hands. I just need to weigh out my options and decide for myself.  You know the quality in life thing. Really the biggest quality is not to have to think about it all the time.