Four years

So here we are four years later. It sucks more today than before, but I'm not hurting just not happy like I was before. I'm not looking for sympathy I just wanted to let you know life goes on wether you like it or not. I don't feel him around anymore so I do pretend a lot.  I'll get through it all.

100 miles in July

Yes that is my goal. I have so far walked around 30 miles so far. It clears my head and makes me smile. I am heading to Minnesota to see the babies and my children. I feel great and hopefully heading in the right direction. Bobby is all signed up for his classes at Mo. State this fall and is very excited about the path he is taking. Mike would be proud. Alex is still searching for a job, let's keep our fingers crossed.

Independence Day

It was four years ago this precise weekend that my family got together and spent our last good time with Mike. We flew to Napa and relaxed with the father and the man I was madly in love with. In a beautiful morning ceremony I renewed the vows we had taken twenty two years ago. We laughed we cried and in the end we were really saying goodbye. As the Fourth of July fireworks exploded up in the air we rejoiced in a celebration of a wonderful life. I miss you Mike more than my heart can take as it slowly bleeds I will cry.