I'm feeling much better today. The steroid shot in the back hurt like a son of a bitch, but thank God it worked. My life seems to go on day by day. I'm not sure which direction I should head. I'm on 25mgs of fentanyl patch. Also the pain management doctor put me on an antidepressant. I guess that in my situation it's only natural that I'm depressed. Just on the inside not on the outside. I'm heading for California next week. Bobby and his girlfriend are also going. She is a sweet girl who has never flown on a plane. This should be quite interesting and fun. While I'm there I will see my doctor at Cedar Sanai. He is so smart and he has been through twenty five years as my Oncologist. I know I will figure out what to do next. I'm trying to prevent those road blocks that keep popping up to prevent me from enjoying my life and the people around me. I'm not so self centered to think that what I'm going through doesn't affect everyone in my life.