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I'm on my way home from Minnesota. The fund raiser went really well. I know Jenni was really glad Debbie Mauer and I came to help. I love spending time with her regardless the conditions. We had a lot of good laughs. The drive home has gone slower than going up it rained most of the way. I received a disappointing email that made the trip a lot longer. I know my kids are glad to get me home. They most need money or want to be fed. Makes me feel so needed. I think most parents can relate. I have gained more weight but I guess that is understandable. I was around nothing but sugar. I need to put myself on a financial and food diet. Back to reality.

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It's Saturday and we still have a lot to do today. We have finished making the gooey butter cakes, cupcakes, and lollipop cake balls. I'm about to start on the individual pies. Apple and peach, Jenni was disappointed I didn't make cherry. I'm so tired from tasting all the sugar. I'm not a big sweet eater. I don't want to get into that habit. I have been. Walking everyday but eating sugar I think you have to be at the gym 5 hours. The cockapoo puppy has been keeping me company this morning, I think will take a nap.

I'm in beautiful MN at Jenni and Jeff's house. The whole neighborhood is darling. A perfect place for a young couple and young kids. They have this fund raiser this weekend. They are trying to convince me to bid on this cute little cockapoo puppy. It is cute but to much work. Jenni is so talented in her creations for this event. She always seems to amaze me. Got to go help.

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It's 3 am and I've been awake for an hour hoping I would fall back asleep. I miss my friends in the west. I've settled into St. Louis alright. I'm not complaining. I danced by myself on my back deck tonight. It's very private and beautiful. I would have rather been dancing with Mike, but I have to make do. I'm heading to Minnesota to help Jenni with a fund raiser she is doing on Wednesday. Debbie Leeman is driving up with me. We will be there until next week. Should be fun. I should try to sleep. I have to get a lot done tomorrow. Maybe the TV will put me to sleep.

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Well it was a very uneventful evening last night. I don't know what I'm expecting to find. Maybe Mike come walking back into my life. We all know that's not going to happen. I can't really explain what I'm going through. I'm not really lonely or depressed. I'm kind of nothing. I go through each day like anyone else, but I have no one to really share it with. So I guess that's why I share it with you. My life is really good. Just empty. I suppose I need to fill it up. I'm think I'm going to take ballroom dancing. My niece is now taking it and I believe she is having fun. Maybe it will release some endorphins in me. I looked outside just now and the sun is shining and the rain is over. I think I'll go walk the park. OK I'm back. Didn't walk because I spent the whole day looking for my phone. Losing your phone will drive you nuts. If your anything like me I have very personal things on my phone. I had forgot that I put it up in Alex's room. Debbie slept there last night and her phone was dead. Thank God for my absent mind. Now I think I can go for that walk.

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It's Friday night and I'm going out with my girlfriend Debbie M. I have had a trying but productive week. Jenni helped a lot in putting the house together. I have almost finished what absolutely needs done. So I'm going out to celebrate. Why not. Bobby is settled in with his team. Both Alex and Bobby will start college this Monday. Luke is moved in he plays hockey too. He and Bobby will have the same classes. Got back into the gym and walking again. Just maybe some of these extra pounds will come off. Got to run just wanted to check in.

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Back at home from Idaho.I had a wonderful time with my sisters and Mom. My nephews were great fun too. Janet has a beautiful home in Gozzar. She and Wayne were the perfect hosts. Yes, I can say home again. Transition was not fun, I think that I can have fun again. My life seems to never settled down. Bobby yesterday had to go to the dentist for an excruciating toothache. It led us to emergency surgery to extract the molar that had been crowned the year before. For those of you that don't have dental insurance it is quite a bite on the wallet. The thing that really shocked me was how big his tooth was. I do feel bad for him. He was in a lot of pain. The surgeon was great, he told us if Bobby hadn't gotten in he would have ended up in the hospital. The infection had almost gone into the blood stream. All is well now. I have my first doctors appointment with the Oncologist here in St. Louis Wednesday. Not really looking forward to that one, but I'm late on my treatment. I hope I like him. Can't stand doctors that don't have time for you. The house is coming along. I took the kids to the movie yesterday. It was Alex, Bobby, and my nephew Chris. We saw the art film The Beginners. It was suppose to be a comedy. I didn't know it was a tragic comedy, about a father dying of cancer. Flashback. My kids weren't real happy with me. So I decided to have my first dinner party with them. I fixed a salad with crostini and pesto to start. Then linguine with two sauces red with spicy Italian sausage, and shrimp with a white wine cream sauce. We had a great time chatting and laughed about the bad choice in film. We also told old Mike stories and all was good.

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I'm leaving Idaho today and I'm glad to get home. The weather has been beautiful and I've enjoyed my visit here. Everything went very smoothly. It has been relaxing. Something I could use after going through this move. Actually I could sleep for a couple of days and that would be nice.

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I'm up in Idaho with my sisters. Last night we celebrated my moms 90th birthday. She is so amazing. We had a lot of fun with the Gretzky family. I think mom really enjoyed being with some of her children. It is so beautiful here in couer de lan. The weather is such a break from St. Louis. I wish life was this easy all the time.