PRESENT Well this morning I will lay in a big old machine and it will scan my body. Hopefully it will show that the bones are clean. I hope that the medicine they are using on me now. The thought of going on to something else is sickening to me. I want so much that I can just go on about my life with out the fear of dying. I'm actually starting to enjoy being surrounded by family, friends, and my dog. I still miss Mike and always will. Please give me steanghth for the rest of the week.