PRESENT

I am still dealing with the withdrawal of the Fentynal patch I was on for a year. I tried cold turkey but found out quickly that was the wrong thing to do. After talking to Dr. G. who was quite upset with me. He suggested to put the patch back on and taper down in lower doses, or take vicodine or percocit. My choice was vicodine, which I have controlled myself into taking only 2 a day. To sleep I usually need ativan. The pain in the bones is gone which is huge relief. I will get through the narcotics slowly, but they will not control me. It will just take a little time and I will be free. On a brighter note I am going to take a quick trip back to St. Louis after my pet-scan on the 13th. I will take a drive up to Rockford Ill. to see Jenni and Jeff's. She is very excited for the visit. So am I. I will also look at some small homes for an investment. I am looking for one I can make into my own style around 1200 sq. feet. I like the Kirkwood area because there is so much to walk to, and part of my family lives there. I must get up and moving in order to get things done.