CAKES

Everyone don't forget to tell all your friends about Jenni's new venture. I wouldn't lye to you they are great.   www.gbgcakeco.com  click on it and it will take you straight to the web. Send it to someone you LOVE.www.gbgcakeco.com

PRESENT

I went to the casino last night with my girlfriend Debbie. The minute you walk into those places you feel dirty from all the cigarettes smoke. I instantly got a headache, but did I leave? Hell no that isn't my genetic makeup. I don't know why I think I'm going to win on video poker. I did start gambling bigger on 3 card poker. I was down and then won a big hand to gain my money back. Which then took me to the craps table. For some reason men love dumb blonde's that don't know how to play the game. That is the place they will help you. Long story short I was able to capitalize and leave a winner. To bad I don't have the balls to bet bigger. I am such a conservative chicken.   It is so cold here in STL but yesterday Penny and I were back at Queeny Park. It's about 4-5 miles so it was quite a trek for her little legs. I think I'll go to the gym today.  Anything other than entering a big shopping mall!!!!! I wish that everyone has a Happy Holiday. I have learned, which Mike really taught me, is that spending it with family, friends, and little Puppy"s is the best thing in the world you can ever ask for. Thank you God for providing all of this for me.

Happy Holidays

PRESENT

Weird they changed how I post. I am aware of the fact that most of my readers have probably stopped checking in to my post. I am OK and happy. I hate saying that or writing about that for one simple reason. Unfortunately every time I announce that everything is great in my life the pendulum swings the other way. Go figure. Today I want to tell you that my daughter and her friend have started a new company. The web sight is www.gbgcakeco.com the product is gooey butter cakes. These cakes are freaking amazing go to her page and you can read all about them. Now as for the holidays coming up. I really wasn't looking forward to them. A little depression set in, but know I think I have passed all that. I think it is going to be a very happy holiday. I hope to all of you that are still reading.www.gbgcakeco.com

PRESENT

I'm laying in bed with Penny who gives me comfort now. I'm glad I rescued her. She is very sweet and calm. I am a bit scared right now. I'm on a new drug, the side effects are minimal. Just some bone aches, but that is common. The thing that worries me is the swollen nodes I have been experiencing lately. It could actually be nothing. When you gone through cancer as much as I have you tend to get a little paranoid occasionally. I'm sure that in a couple of hours it will go away. I would like to concentrate on other things in my life. Like the fact that Bobby is in a showcase in Chicago. Even though he didn't feel that it was his best game played, the next league up approached him to play for them right away. This was only the first game of the showcase. I so wish the very best for all my children as any good parent would. Sometimes you just have to hold your breath and step aside so they can bloom into something special. I would prefer that my health does not interfere with the choices my children make. I will go for another Pet Scan in January and will hope for the best as always. I would love for life to go on calmly right now. Really I would love for them to go on calmly forever.

PRESENT

I'm sure most of you that followed my blog have vanished. Maybe that was my intention. Sometimes when you recieve only negeative feedback on things that don't matter it time to leave the spotlight. I left my life in Arizona and started a new one in St. Louis. The transition was not easy. after a few months I started to settle in and felt good about my life. Working out eating right and socializing the right amount. I'm writing again because I feel I'm slipping back into a dark hole. I don't like it. I shouldn't be here in this hole. I rescued a beautiful little puppy. We named her Penny Lane. I loved the fact that Mike would never pass a penny without making a silent wish and putting it in his shoe. Isn't funny how little things that people did could make such a powerful impact. My kids are great and so is my family. We enjoyed a wonderful Thanksgiving. I don't know if it's the holidays coming up, the cold weather, or the fact that the doctors have me on a new medicine because my old medicine wasn't working and my cancer was back. Maybe one of the side effects are deprecion. I will try my best to snap out of this funk before it gets the best of me. So for the few who have periodically stayed with me. I just want to tell you I'm OK for now. I will push through the holidays. After the first of the year I have another Pet Scan which will let me know if the cancer has gone back into hiding, For now I will hold on tight and keep in touch.