PRESENT

I'm laying in bed with Penny who gives me comfort now. I'm glad I rescued her. She is very sweet and calm. I am a bit scared right now. I'm on a new drug, the side effects are minimal. Just some bone aches, but that is common. The thing that worries me is the swollen nodes I have been experiencing lately. It could actually be nothing. When you gone through cancer as much as I have you tend to get a little paranoid occasionally. I'm sure that in a couple of hours it will go away. I would like to concentrate on other things in my life. Like the fact that Bobby is in a showcase in Chicago. Even though he didn't feel that it was his best game played, the next league up approached him to play for them right away. This was only the first game of the showcase. I so wish the very best for all my children as any good parent would. Sometimes you just have to hold your breath and step aside so they can bloom into something special. I would prefer that my health does not interfere with the choices my children make. I will go for another Pet Scan in January and will hope for the best as always. I would love for life to go on calmly right now. Really I would love for them to go on calmly forever.