PRESENT

Today wasn't great. The pain meds don't seem to be doing the job as much as I like. I still have that burning sensation down my spine. Dr. G gave me some new pain killers, but they are so strong I only take a half. Then Bobby gave us some news about his grades that I was furious with. I would ask him everyday how school was going and he always answered the same. That he was caught up with his classes and grades were good. OK kids lie now we have to play ketchup on his classes before the end o f the school year. He has to maintain over a 3.0 in order to go to Canada for hockey. Those are our standards and we know he is capable. We will set up conferences next week with counselor and the teachers he is not doing well with. Not something we really wanted to deal with. I guess it doesn't matter how much is on your plate, there is always room for more. Even if your full. He has 3 weeks left of school he will get it done!!

PAST

I prepared myself for my double mastectomy as much as one can. I visited with Dr. H a female plastic surgeon who specializes in reconstruction. Mike and I liked her a lot. She and Dr. A the general surgeon had worked together before. When I came out of surgery she was the first one I saw. I grabbed her by the collar. My voice was rough from having a tube down my throat. The first thing I cried was I am in pain, the second was how is Mike. She assured me that once they got me to my room I would be better. She also assured me that Mike was fine, he had been there the whole time. Mike never left my side through all my surgeries I went through. I had gone through a lot in the past and the future wasn't going to be any different. We were about to go into a whole new chapter of our relationship. It wasn't going to be easy in any way shape or form. Mike and I loved and still do love each other like no others. This will keep us stronger as time goes on and time is going to test all our limits.