I am getting ready to go to the doctor. Everyone has a 6th sense when something isn't right, and I have that sense. I hope it is just my nerves. I have been under such huge stress that I hope it hasn't taken a toll on my health. I want to live for myself and my children. I want to be able to see what Mike was not able to see so I can share it with him. Things like Jenni getting pregnant and having our first grandchild, Alex graduating from college, and one day finding a man like her father to walk down the aisle with, and Bobby being drafted into the NHL one day. These are the things to live for and Mike was trying so hard. I can't give up and I won't.