PRESENT

I spent the first day completely alone. Spent 3 hours going through Mike's medical bills. Caught up on All My Children, while I cleaned. Wasn't to bad until I went to the grocery store and realized I was buying for one. I think I talk to myself more now so people may look at me strange. I always was a little weird, so what has changed? I only cry when I take a bath. Mike and I spent a lot of time talking to each other there. It was private and relaxing. It still is. Tonight I thought about being terminal and what that means. I just thinks it's a reminder that all of us are here for a short time. So make the best of life. You can think that way as long as your not in pain. Pain is an evil, all on it's own. I am not a drug addict, but if I didn't have the pain killers I wouldn't be able to function. I'm in bed now and I don't have to worry about any one coming home late. I hope there all safe. Mike I think the kids will be just fine, me too. Love you night.


Past

Still can't remember. I wonder why?