MOMENTS

I tried to get so much done today, and I did, but I only ended up hurting myself. My son was hurting both mentally and physically he did something to his back. He is so angry about his dad dying and leaving him to grow up on his own. He just doesn't relize he is not alone. I sent him to the orthopedic surgeon who is a good friend of mine. I feel bad, because I had to send my daughter Jenni too. She threw her back out this morning. I feel like I can't catch a break. I ended up having a mental break down, and my body shut down. Thank God for Alex, she put me to bed gave me a pain killer. Which I hate taking. I just couldn't take the pain any more. I sometimes forget I'm sick, or maybe it's because I don't want to remember. I am trying so hard to stop living with death and just start living again. Mike I know it is not your fault you did the best you could and I love you for that.