Moments

This is me through the eyes of Mike.


PRESENT

I go to sleep with tears in my eyes and I wake up with tears in my eyes. I know that the pain will one day go away. I just wonder when. It is a numbing pain that doesn't go away with any pill. I have empathy for all the people out there that feel how I feel. I so badly want to break out in laughter and feel the warmth of human touch. I know this feeling of pain will pass. No it won't, my rational side just tells me that. I don't want to depress any one. This is just the way I feel now. There will be a time I will laugh again and feel like I'm living. I just never knew that I had this much love for someone so deeply that I can't get past and move on. I don't want you to be depressed, but if you love someone, but your not quite sure how much, or how deep, don't ever let it be to late to truly enjoy the love. I use to ask Mike why did he love me so much. He just said "I just do, I love everything about you. Your good and your bad. I love your honesty and compassion. I love the way you dance, but you can't sing. I just listen anyway" Why is it I never saw those sides of myself. He brought out the person I was and want to still be. I don't want to be broken. I suppose if I didn't have the tears I wouldn't be human. I am glad I'm human and hopefully real.