PRESENT

I returned home last night and found the comfort of my house and cat overwhelming, but good. I know it's just me, but I am starting to feel the relaxation of Mike around me. He is differently watching over us, he has exposed himself in small ways. I can't explain the sense I get and I want you to know it's loving. Not heart aching like before. I know I will never see him in my lifetime, but maybe in my next and that's OK for me. I will start decorating for Christmas today and it's because I want to this year. In the past 5 years it became a chore. I had to many much more important things to take care of not this year. My children will all be here and I want it to be a good memory. A memory of all the laughter and loved that has filled this house. Mike will be there with a smile on his face. No longer in pain or scared of what faced him. He knew I would be there to help our children through the heart ache. Mike we will continue to make you proud. I also want to thank everyone for there kind thoughts and prayers. I'm glad you are enjoying the journey. That is what life is all about the JOURNEY.